Sunday, February 1, 2009

Freeze Frame

All this time jumping on the show, LOST has got me thinking. Yep, this is another one of my deep thought posts. OK. After reading the question, what is the first thought that comes into your head...... What is the one moment you've experienced that you would like to go back and do over? Not so you could change the outcome of something, but just for the sheer pleasure of experiencing it all over again. I know I should say the birth of my children, but I was heavily drugged so it's not like I really remember it fully. We are fortunate to know many people in the wine business and are able to experience our passion up close and personal by being able to hang at wineries and stay in their guest house. Like this one at Terra Valentine Winery, on top of Spring Mountain in the Napa Valley. My moment to relive would be February 2006. We had had a wonderful evening; dinner at Cindy Pawlcyn's Backstreets Kitchen and then back to the guest house for a roaring fire, lovely bottle of TV Cab, and some dark chocolate, but it was the daybreak that made this the most special place. Words don't do it justice. I am lucky because my minds eye caught those colors that morning as the fog settled down in the valley hanging over the grapes holding that moisture in. My real camera didn't quit get it, but the pictures are proof that something so simple and pure existed. Fog settled on top of the vines. Slowly burning off.... All gone. For a moment, Bill and I were the only two people in the world. Well, at least on top of that mountain, enjoying breakfast. For me, that moment was just about living the beauty of the sunrise, vines, and being with the one I love. I had just had surgery a couple of months before. We were struggling with coming to terms with the fact that invitro was probably our last hope for a family. There were some really dark days before (and I'm not going to lie, after as well), but this day made my life worth living right then. It gave me hope that each day starts anew and with purpose. The fog needed to be there to hold the moisture in the valley so the grapes could soak it all up to withstand the sunshine for the rest of the day. The sun needed to be there to makes those grapes grow and the vines burst with fruit. The vines needed to grow so one day they could end up in a bottle on my table. That day made my dark days a little less. That moment became my happy go-to place when my life seemed to be at a standstill. I went there when I was in the operating room having three embryos transplanted. I think about how someday we will take Reagan & Nolan there and I will get to share the most breathtaking sight I had ever seen with the two most breathtaking sights I have seen since that day.

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