Saturday, January 12, 2008
Where oh Where Has My Nolan Gone?
It is getting harder and harder to see Nolan being so out of character. He was always so happy-go-lucky. My easy baby. He would get into his crib, pull his blanket up, and close his eyes.... and stay that way for 10-12 hours. Now he whines if I'm not holding him. He refuses to sleep in his crib. It is in arms or nothing. He has a couple of hours a day where I see glimpses of my Nolan. I know he has been through so much in a the past 9 days. I know he is probably still feeling pain. It is just so hard to see him this way. Reagan has decided that now is a good time to reinstitute her high pitch squeal/scream that upsets Nolan even more. I feel guilty that Reagan isn't getting as much Mommy time as she should be. If I didn't have the jacuzzi bathtub to relax in for an hour a couple of nights a week, I'm sure you'd be reading about me losing my marbles! Calgon, take me away.